I fucking get it..
I fucking get it completely now..
I fucking said it last night and I knew..
I knew that I was worthless..
That I would fuck everything up in my life and I finally fucking did that..
I would demolish you and break you and that’s what I did..
I fucking failed all of my friendship the real ones the best ones and the fakes ones.. I demolished you all..
The worst… Is I failed the one good thing in my life.. I failed my girlfriend and I fucking knew I would..
I knew I would be to much for her..
I knew I would hurt her.
I knew I would drive her away..
I fucking failed you Lindsey..
I’m sorry to her and everyone that I hurt and shoved out of my life because I’m to fucking stupid to realize what I was doing until it’s to late..
Once a fuck up.. Always a fuck up..
I give up on myself completely… I hate myself so fucking much that I fucking want myself dead but I can’t bring myself to do it because I know it would destroy their worlds completely..